So confused. . .

Source of confusion:
          Thursday, June 17th   -   131lbs
          Monday, June 21st         140lbs
          Wednesday, June 23rd   131lbs

See something funny in that list?  Dang.  that's all I have to say. . . dang.

Weekend Recap

• Friday
• Went in for an interview that I rocked and celebrated by going to Macaroni Grill with my mother then out shopping 
• Saturday
• Didn't eat all day, then drank copious amounts of vodka with some everclear mixed in.  Munched on 2/3 piece of pizza, a cookie, and some chips and queso dip while drunk and out at two different parties.  
• Sunday
• Massively hung over from dehydration.  Went out to eat with parents at Ippolitos for Father's Day.  Came home to munch on cheesecake.

In summary?
Dear god. . .so much sin in my body this weekend.  Monday was a bit better food wise and Tuesday was downright healthy, but yeah. . . that was . . . something special.

Daily Log

Breakfast
141kcal Peach + watermelon

Lunch
176kcal Frogs on a Log

Snack
307kcal Slice of chocolate cake

Dinner
344kcal Brown rice, veggies, onions, garlic, and an egg fried up in olive oil with spices

Snack
252kcal Yoplait vanilla creme whip + honey on a slice of bread

Totals
1219 kcal
191 carbs
  41 g fat
  34 g protein
  18 g fiber

Daily Log

Breakfast
251kcal  Peanut Butter Banana

Lunch
383kcal  Homemade Chocolate Cake

Dinner
320kcal  Homemade Brunswick Stew

Totals
954 kcal
115 carbs
  41 g fat
  42 g protein
  10 g fiber

Thoughts
I'm impressed that even with my bleeding I didn't take in over 1000kcal, I was really worried because I kept craving cake.  Luckily, I replaced cake with sex for a late night snack! ^__^ Great trade off. . .I'm definitely a sex > chocolate kind of girl.

Too little fiber though. . .cake is fine for a rare occurrence, but has too high of calories with no nutritional value for regular consumption!


Caloric intake for the past week (June 09 - 16, 2010)

Thoughts

Current weight : 132lbs
Yesterday, the day went well food wise up until the end. . .I had been cleaning and organizing all day and was exhausted, but by 1am my SO wasn't home yet, so I couldn't go to sleep (I don't sleep well without him here and he was out playing an RPG).  I felt so dead and out of it yet nauseated and I couldn't figure out why.  It was abnormal even for the extreme caloric restriction.  I couldn't handle it, so I gave in to a late night snack. . .that included wheat, dairy, and meat.  I know.  Horrifying right?

Well, first thing this morning I woke up to uncomfortable nightmares, went to the bathroom, and immediately found out why I had felt so horrible last night.  Bleeding.  Good to know I'm not pregnant, but I ended up spending the first 4 hrs of my day in the bathroom unable to function because of the pain. 

Okay, so. . .at some point productivity must be had regardless of this stupid feminine curse (outside of the chocolate cake I just made from scratch because. . .well, you know. . .)

Tues, June 16th- Daily Log

Breakfast
 47kcal  Peach + Apple cider vinegar and lemon

Lunch
316kcal  Oatmeal with a splash of light silk and honey topped with a whole mango

Snack
 99kcal  Watermelon

Dinner
317kcal  Brown rice with california mix veggies, garlic, onion, and an egg fried lightly in sesame oil (with misc. spices)

Snack
234kcal  Sliced bread with smart balance buttery spread + Half a turkey, miracle whip, and mustard sandwich + Apple cider vinegar with lemon (in water)

Totals
1015 kcal
195 carbs
26 g fat
40 g protein
28 g fiber

Still awake means yesterday = today, right?

So, today went pretty well over all.  I kept my caloric intake down, drank tons of water, nommed lots of fruit, and my body even ventured to expel some waste.

Thoughts

I feel like I was relatively productive today.  I did the graphic design for a website that my programmer boyfriend's creating for a friend in return for some homebrewed mead and it took. . .longer than it should've, but it's been a really long time since I created anything like that.  It was really nice to spend some time creating again.  Last time I did that was back in March when I made a frilly skirt.  

However, I didn't get nearly enough cleaning done today or check off what I needed to do on my to do list.  I took out 5 bins of trash, cleaned the kitchen, and went through a few items, but that was about it outside of the designing.  

So interior design?  Not making too much progress yet, but personal exterior and interior beauty's making progress at least.  

Bllrg, I should've gone to sleep as soon as I finished the design because now I'm hungry again.  I've been grazing constantly for the past few days, so I get hungry frequently.

Cons:

• Today's potsticker's contained wheat and a tiny bit of refined sugar = two big no nos for detox and my body tends to hate wheat over all.
• Momentarily blacking out while taking a clock off the wall.  Usually I handle super low calorie detoxes pretty well. . .well, at least as far as I can remember, but only on day three of food restriction and already growing weak?  Shame shame.  Well, that's what the fruit's for: keeping my blood sugar up while detoxing properly.
• I think my boyfriend's getting worried about me.  Mind you, I'm not anorexic - never have been and never will be regardless of my dietary restrictions at times.  I just love food too much!  

 

Detox Day 3- Food Log

Breakfast
205kcal  Watermelon and raw almonds

Lunch
297kcal  Grapefruit and peanut butter banana

Dinner
319kcal  Peach, veggie potstickers, stir fried veggies (with copious amounts of fresh garlic!)

Total
821 kcal
110 carbs
36 g fat
22 g protein
17 g fiber